Hate Wraith

By Me; Garrett Alexander Will

Hate
Wraith
(x2)

He says to me that, "there's nothing to fear...
My everlasting loving hand will always stay near."
These rites infect and devour my head
I shall see for the test of mind in the end
Man-made bastard source of hate
Beyond my love by all rate

Huh!

Hate
Wraith
(x2)
Accomplice of man
Made these lands?
Rape these dreams we sow
We've lost our way
This god rapes these dreams we sow
This god rapes these dreams we sow
This god rapes these dreams we sow
Where is this god now?

All we wish to do is wash away death
From this reality we turn and run away
Hearkening, this burden rots our minds
False destiny set for me like the fray
Broken hopes and empty promises astounding
Hope to see the truth in life this day

Hate
Wraith
(x2)
Accomplice of man
Made these lands?
Rape these dreams we sow
We've lost our way
This god rapes these dreams we sow
This god rapes these dreams we sow
This god rapes these dreams we sow
Where is this god now?

Hate
Wraith
(x4)

No one fucks with my friends, and gets away with it

I wrote a note back in September after a falling out with my ex, who shall be nameless here. Moments after she told me what had happened since I had seen her for the last time, I began writing a note that would end up becoming a hotbed of unnecessary, torturous drama. Not that I intended for that, but I did ask for something when I wrote it. But I was being impulsive at the time, because I felt I had been betrayed yet another time in my life after so many previous times in the past. You could have a heart to heart discussion with me on this and you'll find out everything.
What I didn't expect was for two moochers, one Katie Shannon and one Jade Travis, who tried to destroy my social life through the note. Although I did ask for it as I stated previously, this was totally unexpected and actually, uncalled for.
Basically, after writing the note, Katie Shannon and/or Jade Travis added some of the people I mentioned in the note and basically tried to get them to attack me for simply expressing myself. As if that was a crime. Of course, since Katie Shannon and Jade Travis had no understanding of my motives behind the note, they gave the wrong impression to the people I mentioned. However, I knew the note had to stop when they tried to poison the mind of my closest friend I had mentioned in that list; Sylvie Therese Gautreau.
A heads up regarding Sylvie; we've had our ups and downs. We've experienced a few bumpy roads before, but certainly, she has shown me that she's one to be appreciated dearly by sticking by me all the while. After all, I still have some feelings for her, although I am smart about those feelings in that with how things are at the present time, they would only complicate what I feel is a very good friendship (even though we've only met each other twice in person) unnecessarily. The note could have fucked things up between us, but I am so very thankful it didn't.
Basically, Sylvie made me aware of what was going on regarding the note and Katie Shannon's insidious scheme to kill my social circle by tainting Sylvie's mind with misconstrued lies. After that, and a heart-to-heart talk about the thing, Sylvie showed that she was sorry for the things that had gone on between us, and I showed that I was sorry too; neither of us is more 'guilty' of causing any bumpy roads than the other, although I sort of feel I am myself. So thus, I had to delete the note because my intention for the note was not to slander anyone I mentioned. I even mentioned Mark Hebert in that note, but I said in it that I had forgiven him (at the time at least, just a little, but a little is better than nothing at all). No, my intention was to vent my feelings at the time of writing the note.
So I say this to Katie Shannon; if you have bones to pick, you pick it with me. Don't fuck with my friends; that's cowardly and says MUCH about your character. Even after all the things I did through all of your bullshit last year, you still felt the need to antagonize me. I thought we were on the same page to simply forget that we ever met, but she felt the need to fuck things up even more for me. Sure, I didn't grieve too much for losing Becky Allen's respect because we were pretty much over each other at the time, but trying to fuck with Syl was what got me angry. Hell, after I kicked her out of my apartment last year, she left her Social Insurance card! She god damn forgot her wallet for Pete's sake. If I was as much of a bastard as she was trying to make me out to be, I could have done plenty of damage to her life through that SIN card of hers. What kind of an idiot forgets such a vital piece of identification? But alas, I'm not an asshole, I'm not heartless, and while vengeance would have been sweet, I felt that kicking her mooching ass out was vengeance enough; her SIN card was in safe keeping with me. Hell, after her bullshit that would proceed until she finally picked it up (about two or three weeks later, ugh), I was contemplating just throwing it into the garbage!
I don't care if I get some flak from her circle of friends who still happen to be on my friend's list and hers; you fuck with those I care about, and you get a smack down. If you have something to say to me, say it to me; leave my friends out of it, especially Sylvie, who I never felt ill towards and will never fuck with. You're a fucking coward, and I feel absolutely no sympathy for you, let alone empathy. You showed me just how manipulative and exploitive you are even through the times you knew were difficult, for me especially. You took advantage of my good qualities just to save your ass; you care only about yourself. I cared enough to give you and all your moocher friends a chance time and time again, and none of you repaid me in any way, shape, or form. If you still have something to say, grow a pair and say it to my face. If not, then I'm done with you as of this note. I feel that expressing all of this is good for myself. And unlike the note (which has been deleted since mid-September) in question, I didn't slander anybody, let alone Sylvie or even Mark. Me and Sylvie have reconciled and I feel our relationship has since bolstered because of our recent visit with each other, and I couldn't be happier and more appreciative. Mark has shown in his own way, no matter how genuine it is, that he's capable of at least a light apology. That's progress, but since he was the cause of the mess on his end last year, it's surprising that he's the only one capable of any form of apology.
So this venting is over. Sylvie is too good a friend to me and I can't afford to lose that; so when a manipulative person like KShan tries to destroy that bond between me and Syl, someone has to pay. No one goes behind my back to ruin things for me and gets away with it. Sylvie's a loyal, wonderful, and admirable person who deserves all the care in the world; you are not, so beat it and rot with others like you. I'm done with you.

Keep on mutating,

Twisted Mutant Bearman

Elor Maximiline's Dream (lyric)

Elor Maximiline's Dream
Lyrics: Garrett Will

Maximiline; he had a dream
He wanted the whole world, so he needed a machine
Foiled by a powerful, greedy seed
He despised "better for the greater good in need"...

In his eyes we waste away
Lives of lies; a cancerous pain
Overmind, conqueror and bane
Rule our lives, suppress with hate

A hardened mind; a binded frame
Despite the signs, the beast's not tame
Overmind, conqueror and bane
Rule our lives, suppress with hate

Maximiline's Domination Dream
Minds not our lives to rot and wash away
Maximiline's Domination Dream
Minds not our lives to rot and wash away

Maximiline; he had the world
He had everything he could ever have hoped
He kills our minds, with bile and wo
Trapped in line, he keeps us in note

Maximiline's Domination Dream
Minds not our lives to rot and wash away
Maximiline's Domination Dream
Minds not our lives to rot and wash away

Overmind, conqueror and bane
Overmind, conqueror and bane
Rule our lives, suppress with hate
Overmind, suppressor, king of hate

The Steam That is Left

You can tell
I have no kids
You might as well
Go take a piss
High Time Payment!
High Time Payment!

I pulled a Homer
Big time, what a night!
I move people over
For what, a bright light?
High Time Payment!
High Time Payment!

Say no to drugs
Or so they say, in droves, in droves!
Prying your life too much
Asking, "why, why, why, DOVES!?"
High Time Payment!
High Time Payment!

I know I'm weird
Tell yourself to lock me up now
Still got steam here
Watch me go HA HA!
High Time Payment!
High Time Payment!

Watch me go
Under the floor
Watch me go
Under the floor
Laughing all alone
Laughing all alone
Laughing all alone
In my humble abode

Let It All Out...Twisted Bearman!

Ma Chemise
It's Green!
No I'm not
I'm not a killing machine!
I just live
Live to be free!
Vrij!

Para nós vamos
And leave
It's all set
And about to be seen!
Harpies and marshes
It's an illness
Cura!

Ottone brillante
Atonement
Lackeys!
Try to live
Beyond the
Madness!
Try to
HAVE HUGS!!!

I'm insane
But you are
Fucking lame
At least I'm unique
And without shame
I live the day
Hé!

Você está rindo?
It Must've been yo'
Failure to be a pro
Fuckup like me
Look up the tree
Living a life
Like it's meant to be free!

Poetic Justice!
And you read it!
I laugh at you
Do you understand this?
Eu sou melhor do que você
você é melhor do que mim
Breathe!

Torcido Bearman
That indeed I am
And I don't eat no ham
This ain't a fucking scam
Your time here was spent well
Now off you go to hell
Just don't go buy a dell
In case you can't even tell
All along that I've been kidding
I just don't care for knitting
This joke it just seems fitting
Laughing in this chair, sitting
SITTING!

The State of the World Address: Stephen Harper and His Stupidity

A Coalition...
A Coalition may be coming.

Well, every Canadian who gives a shit about who runs the show and handles the flow of their money and tax dollars should know that a coalition is in the works. Right now, it looks like a coalition may well happen; thanks to Harper. I'm in support of a coalition for a reason; I voted to get that fucking dipshit out of office, along with most of the people who fucking bothered to vote. If, say, at least 75% of the eligible voters in the land of Hockey and Back-Bacon voted, I am sure that the Conservatives would be out of there. But no, that's not how it turned out.

But, in empathy of his informed and uninformed supporters (the latter of which I am sure is the majority), I realize that Harper's been politically suicidal for a while now, so I don't feel sorry for the guy. He's been flip-flopping, ruthlessly attacking other parties, putting into place plans to move for political resolutions like banning public sector workers from striking (I tell you, with some of the resolutions to be in consideration, courtesy of the Tories, they'll have little to no support from the working class citizens of Canada), and even pulling back-stabbing antics like coercing Michaëlle Jean into supporting his party (of all of them) and shutting down parliament to slow down the efforts of the coalition pushers.

The guy's a fucking tool, can't my fellow Canadians see that? It's not surprising that any politician would be an idiot on at least some level, but Harper is so different his idiocy is almost refreshing, just not in a good way. He's also a dullard, but the only instances where he will have any bit of flare is when he's being a huge dick towards other people, namely other politicians; he's been doing that lately. Want to know one of the big reasons why Dion lost in the last election? Because of the Conservative ads attacking his image and character; you remember the one, where they edited a speech he gave about the Carbon Tax plan to make it seem like he wants to tax the majority of the country. And soon after the election, he wanted to take away the ability of other federal parties to get a majority and whatnot.

The idiot brought this coalition onto himself.

Another recent move is his wishes to get more seats in the Ontario riding -- 21 seats. Basically, he lost about 10 seats in Quebec, and is bound to lose more, so now he's trying to compensate in a province that, while literally divided when it comes to support of the Conservatives or the Liberals, gives a huge potential for any party to simply gain more control. This will alienate Western Canada further, and this would be a bad move because of Western Canada's growing influence on the rest of the country, since at least half of the production and economic growth of the country is from those provinces. So there's another self-destructive move orchestrated by Harper and his cronies.

Oh well, we all might be relieved (while some won't) when the coalition goes into place and the Tories boot that idiot's ass out of his position and into something lower (which is standard procedure). While I do not support him at all, which is quite clear in my flamboyant expressive rhetoric, I'd give him some advice; shut the fuck up or fire your current spin-doctors, and hire new ones. If the idiot wants to stay where he's at, he should take some advice from whomever offers it, because what he's doing now is disastrous for him and his party. He'll be marked as an embarrassment to the Tories if he continues his downward spiral.

Heil Harper!

Not.

I'm a Moody Fucking Poet

1) What is your name?
Garrett Alexander Will

2) What is your age?
20 years young.

3) What is the highlight of your day?
I had an interview at the Botsford Esso.

4) How was it?
I think it went good. My experience is not so great, maybe, but I did my best to convince him that I am one to be hired.

5) Do you have any plans tomorrow?
No.

6) Do you have any plans for this week?
Not yet.

7) Have you met anyone new in the past month?
Yes, Cassie.

8) Can you name all of your friends?
Adam, Tyler, Cassie, Sylvie, Gabby, Mark (yes Mark, I still call you a friend), Ryan, Darren

9) Who are your closest friends?
Adam, Cassie, Gabby, and Tyler I guess.

10) What colour are your eyes?
Blue, with a grey tint. Really doesn't mean much unless you shine a suitably-toned light on them to really look.

11) Why are you taking this quiz?
Bored as fuck.

12) How much money do you have in your wallet?
None, but that doesn't mean I don't have some spare change lying around in other places.

13) How tall are you?
I'm about 6 feet, just slightly shorter than my sis.

14) Are you an only child?
No, I have a biological sister and a half-brother.

15) Do you get along with your family?
Yes, I'd say so.

16) Where do you live?
Moncton, NB

17) Is there a village/town/city in which you want to live?
I'd like to live in North Vancouver some day, but that won't come for a while. First, I need the money. Then, I need to know what I will do there. I haven't met either of those yet :P

18) Do you have a talent?
I feel that I am good at writing and playing games. I haven't touched on my talents too much in the last while, which is sad and unfortunate.

19) What is your mood right now?
Better than before; I'm somewhat mellow. Before, I was sort of gloomy, because I noticed that it's the winter season a little too well for my own good. I don't like winter.

20) How many songs do you have in your playlist? And do you have a name for it?
At the moment, there's 317 songs in there. I ripped half a dozen songs earlier, so there'll be approximately 323 songs at the end of the day. I call my playlist "Indulgence in Bearsong Vistas."

21) What are you listening to now?
Relax by Powerman 5000

22) What are/were your most favorite classes in school?
English, Journalism, Biology, Computer Sciences, Visual Arts

23) Are you artistic?
Yes, somewhat.

24) If you are artistic, what kind of art do you do?
Literary art (writing). Some sketching when I actually get to it.

25) Is there anyone you are interested in romantically?
No. However, I am attracted to someone.

26) Does he/she know?
Yes, I think so.

27) What is stopping you?
She broke up recently and is not fully over that. That and she's going through a lot of things, so I want to take things slowly. At the time, we're friends, and I hope, we're good ones.

28) How would you describe your personality?
I'm big-hearted, open-minded, logical, dynamic, moody, somewhat introverted yet slightly extroverted (I'm rather reserved), imaginative, analytical, sexual.

29) Do you have any heroes?
For the record, I'm not a follower (nor am I a leader). However, I do appreciate a number of people and figures in our history. Such include Sigmund Freud, Richard Dawkins, Dana Monteith, Keith Olbermann, and others whom I can't name right now.

30) Do you have a good memory?
Most of the times. However, when I think too hard, I can forget things. Usually these things include words and vocabulary. It just has to come naturally I guess. I still remember some things many years ago, like my various surgeries.

31) Are you a virgin?
No

32) When was your first time?
18; almost 3 years ago.

33) Do you like your job?
I don't have one at the moment. I really need and want one :/

34) Are you serious about politics?
Somewhat. I'm pretty opinionated regarding the parties that call themselves the "bosses" of our country, and of other countries. I support the NDP party at the moment.

35) What country do you live in?
Canada

36) Have you ever been in a fight?
Playfights here and there, but I was slugged across the face once. I think, when I was a bit of a shit at some point, I ticked off some kid with a short temper and he slugged me right there.

37) Do you hurt easily?
What, physically? No.

38) I meant to ask whether you feel emotional pain easily?
Ah, got'cha. I'm somewhat emotional and I do get hurt a little easily. When I get lied to (white lies don't hurt me) or used, I get quite upset.

39) Are you a social person?
I'm not an outgoing guy but I do get along with my tightly-knit circle of friends, at least, I think. As I said before, I'm reserved.

40) Why are you writing this interview?
Bored as hell.

41) Did you know that the bird is the word?
Bi-bi-bi-bird bird bird!

42) Do you play any games online?
Yes. I play Counter-Strike: Source. At some point, I'll start playing L4D. I'll get back to TF2 when another class update comes out. The Heavy update was a little disappointing to me.

43) Have you written any poems?
Yes, several. One of them is called Pandæmonium Fortress.

44) Any stories?
I'm writing one or two. I know I'm a little dedicated to one of them, and it's called Plague of the Wendigo.

45) Werewolves or Vampires?
Werewolves for the fucking win.

46) What is your favorite animal?
The Grizzly Bear. Mountain Gorilla. Humans.

47) Are you a religious person?
Not at all.

48) Is there a God?
So far, there is no convincing evidence of one, let alone the Abrahamic God. And whose to say it has a gender, let alone being a man with a fucking beard?

49) Do you have a pet?
I have a rabbit, which I call Mo.

50) Are you in a relationship?
No.

51) Do you like sex?
You bet.

52) Do you have porn?
Yes, and I get more a couple times a week. Haha.

53) What book are you reading now?
Christopher Hitchens' "God is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything" after a long hiatus. I am not so great when it comes to dedication.

54) Are you lazy?
Fairly.

55) How much do you weigh?
I haven't measured in years.

56) Have you ever had surgery?
Yes, plenty of times. They aren't fun but the last several surgeries were for my benefit.

57) Are you in college/university?
No, but I should start college next September.

58) What course?
Computer Desktop Support. I am aiming to become a Hardware Technician to repair and assess/help with computer parts.

59) What time is it right now?
11:57 PM

60) Do you use perspirant or deodorant?
I prefer anti-perspirants to deodorant, since they seem to work better and aren't so much like cologne.

61) Have you talked to anyone in the last day?
Yes, Cassie.

62) Is there anyone you miss?
Adam and Cassie.

63) What is coming up in the next week?
Christmas Parade. I want to go with someone.

64) Do you have any piercings and/or tattoos?
I don't have any of either one.

65) Are you in a good mood right now?
Pretty much neutral.

66) Are you aggressive?
No, and it takes a lot to get me that way.

67) Are you gay, straight, or bisexual/bi-curious?
I'm bisexual, a little more straight than homosexual.

68) Are you a hateful person?
I personally feel that I am not.

69) What do you think of this question number?
I'd like to give that a whirl some day.

70) Are you ever going to raise a family?
I'm not crazy on that idea. I'm not interested in marriage, nor am I interested in spreading my genes.

71) Even Steven or Odd Todd?
Even Steven.

72) If you could be one person for the day, who would you be?
I haven't given that any thought.

73) Do you take drugs or drink alcohol?
No. Only thing I've done is smoke cigarettes

74) What is on the television right now?
Commercials.

75) What kind of music do you listen to?
Just about any, but mostly Metal, Ambient, Dark Ambient, Blues, and Electronica.

76) Do you have a business card?
In fact, I do. It's mostly to help me get a job, though.

77) Do you see a shrink regularly?
No.

78) How long has it taken you to get this far?
About 45 minutes, I think.

79) Do you use the computer often?
Yes, quite often.

80) Do you have a motto?
Mutant Bearman!

81) Do you have any disabilities?
Yes, hearing disabled. Fairly severe, save for having these BAHAs.

82) Do you have account on Myspace? Facebook? Xanga? Other?
Yes to the first two. I have one on Blogger, Youtube, OkCupid, and RedRoom.

83) Do you visit any message boards?
A couple of them. The Richard Dawkins forums, NotYet forums, & Cannibal Corpse forums.

84) Do you feel like yelling or punching anything/anybody?
I feel like venting off some steam, preferably by punching something. I don't want to punch a person though.

85) Are you angry at anybody?
Not as of recent. I was angry at a couple of people for usurping my circle of friends, but I'm over that.

86) Do you "dissect" yourself?
Yes, to understand myself better. It's better than shutting myself off to, well, myself.

87) How smart do you think you are?
Fairly. I won't self-aggrandize myself, however.

88) Do you have pictures of yourself?
Only a few. I don't take pictures of myself often, in fact, I prefer not to (I'm camera shy).

89) Are you soft-spoken?
A little bit. I don't yell at people unless they provoke me to do that.

90) Lastly, what is on your mind right now?
Quite a few things, so it's hard to lay down a few.

91) Thanks for answering my questions. Would you take another interview if I make another?
Yes, I think so. Not a bad way to kill off time.