Well I feel I have decided the best thing at this point. It'll help me, with the stress I've been feeling for the past month or so.
I'm going to back away from a certain someone for a little while. I don't know how long I'll do that for, but I feel it is necessary. I've been too clingy, stressed, and hopeful for the last while to a certain someone. If she reads this then I hope she understands. I am not intending to call off the friendship. I just feel that giving myself some time to think and to clear up my head will help settle things a little. I've given this certain someone too much and I feel I have only made things worse by doing so. So I need to settle down.
This is pretty much the best thing to do. I don't know what else I could do at this point without fucking things up further. Since I care about her enough to do this, I think I might be doing both of us a favour by toning down my approach significantly for a while. I'm much too centered on her at the time and I don't need to be, and I know she doesn't want or need that right now. I've felt insecure, stressed, scared, and even angry about what I felt was going on between us, even though I had nothing to base any of those feelings on really. And that's why I feel I have been too clingy or hopeful with her.
I don't know how long this'll take me, but it'll be as long as necessary. A comfortable grace period between me and her, I feel, would really help. Since I don't want her to feel uncomfortable because of my actions or feelings, this is the best thing I could possibly do I think.
Peace, and wish me luck,
Garrett
P.S Thank you for your friendship so far, you know who you are.
