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Saturday, June 7, 2008

Survival is Key...

I think it's time to see things straight.

For the longest time in the last 6 years of my life, I've been devoid of aim. I didn't accept myself for who I am, and what I really want for all this time. That will likely change.

Two university/government-certified personality tests, composed with utter professionalism without the sarcasm or error present in those of internet "5-minute quizzes", held the exact same results despite being completely separate tests. They had the same aim as each other, but were composed and presented differently. Yet I got the same results.

Neat 'o.

My personality is that of an Investigative, Realistic, and Artistic person. Key traits are that I would rather work alone, don't like much physical work, would rather do something that utilizes the brain, am creative, perceptive, rather introverted, and spontaneous. Every one of these traits are what I see of myself. The tests didn't involve right or wrong answers; it was all about perception. For example, one such question would ask, "A person is struggling with a very difficult question. You could help, ignore, or recommend someone else to help him/her. What do you choose to do?" There are 6 categories, which include mine; Investigative, Realistic, Artistic, Conventional, Social, & Enterprising.

I have images of a few careers would suit my personality types. My codes are: IAR, IRA, AIR, ARI, RAI, RIA. You can spot them all on each image. A couple of the careers listed, including Biologist and Architect, are actually appealing to me. You can see all of these in the images below.

Oh, and keep mutating.


Thursday, February 28, 2008

The N00z from a N00zBear

So...

I think I'll be moving to Calgary within the next couple months. There's nothing here for me so far, so I have to take opportunities that are presented to me. This opportunity is in the form of my sister is offering to let me share a place with her and her "boyfriend", whom I do not appreciate for his injustices to her. Kind of cool indeed, despite that fact that her "boyfriend" will be living there (or will he? Who knows how low he'll stoop).

From there, I can build up my resources twice as fast as I could out here and end up at my destination sooner; beautiful British Columbia. No, I won't move to Rinse Rupert, but I will end up on the wonderful West Coast.

My preferred/desired destination along the coast would be in the area of Vancouver, not the city so-to-speak. I'm thinking rural Vancouver, somewhere generally quiet (but not in the mudslide-prone parts), but I am now thinking that it could cost more to live in the rural areas than it would in the city-adjacent places like Richmond or Burnaby.

I'll very likely have to be resourceful in this scheme and go to Nanaimo. I've read in several places (accuracy or lack thereof aside) that the cost of living is low in B.C terms, though that might be equal to living in Moncton.

So I'm thinking that the earliest time of my leave would be the last week of March. It's likely that it won't happen that early but it depends on the Sis's progress in getting a job (and a place). Not to mention she's gotta do it soon since her benefactors are going to move to Brandon, MA again. I don't think Jus wants to end up in Brandon, what with the lack of apparent opportunity in comparison to Calgary ($12.50 an hour at Tim Horton's should be a clue to how much money is circulating through the stampede city) and it being in an average province. Fuck, I wouldn't want to move to Manitoba myself, so why would my Sis?

Anyway, I look forward to this. The jobs just don't want to come my way even with my efforts to get one (I applied at more than a dozen this month so far), and my landlord is probably losing patience despite knowing that it's hard for me to get a job. All there is in this blasted province is retail and telemarketing/call-centers
, nothing else that I could write home to. It's a neat little province but it's not for me, plus it's not where I want to end up (complete opposite, yargh).

Grizzly out.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Succession/Recession?

The title is a trick question. The answer is already there; Success.

I got laid off from Vito's last week. That kind of sucked, but in more ways than I perhaps realize. It is simple to say that this layoff was a good thing because it presented me the need to find a better opportunity. And how great for this to be true that I may start working for ADT security systems a day or two from now. What I like most about this opportunity is that I can work from home!

When I registered for the position, as required by the job poster, the job description stated that I can make $1,000 in the first week with "little effort." Sounds a bit too good to be true, eh. Not to mention, the position did not require a job experience. My employer will be Apex, a subsidiary of ADT. It is indeed a work from home job. How much better can you get than that? Well, if you have an education and rèsumé to back yourself up, you can get better definitely. Goes without saying, actually.

If this works out, then I may be able to take back the apartment for myself. It'll be such a good thing for myself if I do that, because it's just too noisy and cluttered at the time with so many people coming and going in the house. Too much second-hand smoke, litter, drunkenness, and noise for my taste. It was so much more peaceful and it was much easier when the place was all to myself. I bought my own food and thus consumed it all myself, the house was quiet, I was extremely minimal with electricity use, and the house was relatively clean (other than my room, but if you know guys like me well, then you would understand why). Nowadays though, with so much laziness, noise, and low-life behavior ridding the place, I can't help but feel very anxious for the day that the apartment can be claimed as my own.

Well, the phone interview for the job is tomorrow, when I make it happen anyway. I hope this goes through, because the job makes pretty damn good money. If I succeed, then I can easily claim this apartment as my own in the very near future. Wish me luck, y'all.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Update from the Bear

Winter time is fast approaching, if it isn't here already. Lots of things happened in the last couple of months, and only a small portion of them are overtly positive.

On the first of November, I began life on my own. Mentally, it was not hard to cope with, at all mind you. The reason being for this is perhaps because I was quite willing to get myself out of Woodstock, and I will admit it for all of my life, that I do not regret that choice. It was not a bad choice at all, I must say, despite the hardships I've gone through in the last couple of months, especially this month. More on that below.

My roommate moved in a week prior to December. It took him that damn long enough to move in, eh? He had a job, too, but he had too many excuses up his sleeve to do anything about it until the day finally moved in. So far, he hasn't payed much on his part, not much at all. He gave me $100 the second week that he lived here, but I had to use it on food, getting around town on the bus, job interviews, etc. However, my roommate (whom I shall designate henceforth as "Mr. X") has a handful of quirks that I can't stand...to a degree. For one, he's a party animal. It's all he does it seems. This one quirk leads on to one that's more serious. He allows people to stay here after a party. Because of this, he's allowed another person to live here, but that doesn't include this person's friend temporarily crashing at the place. Temporary my ass, she's been living here since the beginning of the month, for free mind you. He had to violate my trust by allowing them to do so without consulting me first, which is a big mistake on his part because I am the 'boss' of the place, I pay most or all of the bills, and I didn't want a bunch of people living here. He's no right to do such things.

One thing that has ticked me off about my roommate is that he's become increasingly lazy over time, he could even be at his peak laziness now, mind you. He has only worked twice since he's lived here, and because of his neglect to show up to work, he got fired. He hasn't done much of any job searching, from what I could tell. More or less, he's been sitting on the couch all day, or playing on my computer when I'm not around or when he asks. I think the next time that I go to work (oh, I should have said earlier that I got a job. Job sucks, mind you :P), I will unplug my computer so that he can't use it, and bring the power cord with me :). Seriously, this is how irritated I am getting to this point. He's lucky that it is the time of holidays, because if it wasn't, then I would have had him leave a week ago.

So about all he does each and every day is stay home, sit on the couch, get drunk or eat the shittiest food that you can buy (or both), play games or watch drab television, and once in a while, he throws parties that really aren't parties, and more like a gathering of drunken/stoned (often both) retards who talk about the most boring shit my artificial ears have ever heard. Not to mention, they dirty up the house all the damn time, there's always something broken it seems, and they leave lights on (thus bringing up my electricity bill). To ice the cake, they complain about me requesting them to clean up their fucking mess before I go to work for 8 to 10 hours. Talk about being childish.

The two people that are living off of my bills for free (at the moment, this will change very soon) don't do much of anything themselves. In fact, I don't remember the last time they've gone outside for anything other than getting craptacular food from the new Sobey's. One of them is supposed to land a job so as to return to her home, but she hasn't done almost any of that to the best of my knowledge. In fact, just thinking about that, I am considering telling her to apply at a McDonald's, seeing as she's a high-school dropout and is lucky to get any job at all with that unfortunate development on her profile. The other one is also a high-school dropout, for perhaps better reasons (although there are hardly any competent reasons to fucking quit school, truthfully), but she hasn't applied at many more places as the last one. While she does help clean up around the house, and paid for those few weeks where she's lived under my roof, it isn't quite enough to remedy the fact that she's just as big a slob as the rest of them. She hardly cleans, to be honest, and even when she cleans, all of my roommate's friends, including her, dirty them up only hours after they're cleaned (I've seen these dishes after she's "cleaned" them, and her clean-job is pretty mediocre at best). I clean up as often as I can, seeing as I am busying myself these days, but I can't do it all. When I get home from work, and see a rat's nest like what the place is now, I get a bit upset. I'm doing all I can to snap them out of their lazy stupor, but they're so childish as to avoid taking any relative ounce of responsibility.

This will change though. I plan on giving him the metaphorical boot next month, because I am getting tired of him and his friends' shenanigans. At this rate, we're no better than bums, although I am the only one who is doing something to rid ourselves of that label. As time goes on though, I am only considering worrying about myself, because I am quite sure that my roommate will be out of here, for good and without any negotiation, sometime next month. He seems to forget that we have such a forgiving, patient, and astoundingly polite landlord, too. I had to put my dignity and outward compassion on the line for my roommate when dealing with our landlord, so it was indeed an uncomfortable thing to do. In fact, if we didn't have the landlord we have now, neither of us would be living here. I wouldn't be writing this at this very moment. This is how good he and I have this, but he does little or nothing to show a bit of appreciation for it. So, consequences will be made. He shouldn't require a wakeup call to get his ass back in gear.

However, I will have the house to myself over the holidays, so I am at least thankful for the holidays for that reason. Hopefully they actually clean up, rather than doing something half-assed about their blatant mess. My parents are coming down in a couple of days, so it's the least that my lazy prick of a roommate can do, seeing as he does nothing otherwise.

GB out.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

American Psycho inspired Poem

 

Blissless Shell (inspired by American Psycho)

by Garrett “Grizzly” W.


Look past me, I am the hideous

You can't grasp my total lack of bliss

My body writhes silently, swiftly

My mind conjures wickedry like ecstasy

I am a cracked, hollow shell

I am your last sight before your trip to hell


You're heartless almost mindless

You're a tool – you're a fool

I am the cleanser, the defender

I am the scourge to everything for pleasure

My total lack of bliss

Accompanies your death kiss


I seek the not-so-meek

I laugh as I feel weak

Every week I feed or purge

Inspired murder – cannot resist the urge

You see me as that I am not

I always see you as one when you rot


Fierce competition, hatred fruitions

Better is my motto, it's my mission

Attaining such needs oft sadism

I should be the embodiment of Sadism

I despise me, you espouse me

For that I take you with glee


Instability, insanity, my very few abilities

Do not so much as to self-please

You hear me albeit with ignorance

Hence I destroy you in my blunt arrogance

My journey through my total lack of bliss

Should it be not so much as a miss?

Friday, November 23, 2007

Jesus (8 year olds, dude), I am good: "The Darkening Corrupter" poem

The Darkening Corrupter

by Garrett “Grizzly” W.


*Darkening corrupter

Taking forth the lover

Hatred spreads as butter

Only to continue a new day

Akin to your corrupter

A bliss-less form of slaughter

It leeches your pure power

To take it away in any way


The darkening corrupter

Bliss-less form of slaughter

Hateful, leeching corrupter

**Right Hand leads today

Any day

Any day

Any day

Any day

Corruption


Darkening corrupter

You're joyous, so laughed the martyr

Right Hand shall cripple the power

And sweep aside for pain

Kneel for your corrupter

As it plows your kin asunder

Our power it never falters

Right Hand leads today, every day


The darkening corrupter

Bliss-less form of slaughter

Hateful, leeching corrupter

Right Hand leads today

Any day

Any day

Any day

Any day

Corruption


Corrupter. Slaughterer. Power.



* Darkening Corrupter: A biological weapon employed by the group below
** The Right Hand (Right Hand as appears in poem): A pseudo-fanatical militia research group bent on tyrannical rule of Earth. Fictional. Will appear in a story of mine.

(Poem and it's contents are in reference to a story I am writing, and also, it's all mine, so don't be a douche and take it. After all, my blog is licensed for protection)

Property of me, Garrett Will

No Mercy!

At Ease! At Ease!

By our God we solemnly swear. At Ease!

Our enemy is at the last square

Police

No our war is not fair

Please

No mercy, we are the flare

No peace!


All hands! All hands!

Without stop we conquer the land. All hands!

One nation, one fight for our man

Man

We fight, knowing that we can

Clan

No stopping now, we shall own your hands

The plan!


March Forth! March Forth!

Lead the biblical raid. March Forth!

Stealing your goods for our maids

Worth

No stopping now, we'll bring the pain

Hurt

Onward march, our path is lain

March forth!