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Saturday, November 17, 2018

Alone With My Craft; "Erosion" Anthology Preview


I sit here with my pen, once again at my side. All of those whom I’ve considered a friend have left me by my lonesome. The pen is all that I have left. And without fail, every single time I write, it jots down the characters I desire with nary a protest or question. Should the mood strike me, I can, with this pen, smite those who have wronged me or wish to do me wrong; if my thoughts descend into the darkest, deepest reaches of the abyss, the pen will not cower or fight the will of my motions. It is ever abiding—its ink records my thoughts and my fantasies, my fictions and experiences, as it should do. For that, which is to serve the literary artist, is its very purpose. Unfailingly loyal to me: my pen will never lie to me or abandon me. I feel safety and comfort in it knowing these aspects of the object.
Yet still I find myself missing the nuances of human interaction. An object of no whim or pulse of its own cannot replace the intricacies of the soul. Yes, I’ve come to know the greatest pains and sadness having had contact with my fellow man, yet, my works on the page—my craft of literature has derived all of its inspiration from those very interactions and experiences. And sometimes it is necessary to have the ego of another mind challenge your own. So here I am, alone with my pen, and my craft is, as I have come to realize, doomed to dry out. My inspiration is limited now. No companionship or strife means I may not know what to put to paper any longer. Such is perhaps the only net positive of coping with the many angles of life’s experiences.
The sharpness of the pen shall close this book for now. I think I will go for the neck; deep and precise, and most importantly, the pain will be as quick & brief as the swiftness of a fox. Alone with my craft, this will be the very last gift my pen will give to me.

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Bonded; Father & Son

I've written a lot of material over the summer, which I admit I could have shared here. I didn't. But that changes today. Here's the latest addition to that line of work, finished just a few minutes ago.

By Garrett Will/Wisdom Eye

Friday, March 23, 2018

'Anchor' Mini Project

I'm kind of on a roll, here. I guess that's what happens when you listen to music that really touches on something you hold close to your heart.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1gNRdc02wcRuwWTUxba-0YkGHX8auIlHp

Like the previous project, it is watermarked.

Edit: Increased transparency of watermark; changed a few lines, added a new one.

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Dimming - Mini Project

Well, I've finished a project in one sitting and it's all finished, ready for sharing.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1u_KlHYNHJLgNsbneAjxYdrFqkBeU2X6g

It is watermarked.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Deepest Reaches/Dressed in Crimson

Where will the prayer reach when I seek its solace?
I've done the worst of deeds again today
When will the beak that utters an answer with wings
Break the pattern of my voracious stupor?

I'll just wish for a chance to stop
Her essence flows from my hands
I'll just call out my anguish to a non-audience
Her essence peppers the ground

And ye' I know, I took her life this day
Me in my power, and her awash in frailty (an angel if she were)
The visions cleared and ye', dressed were my hands in crimson
Any other way could I choose, I'd clothe them in ash

Where will the prayer I shout finally make way?
I've taken an irreplaceable spark so undeserving
When will the blind cycle of crimson thirst break?
I'm the harbinger of the reaper's soulless aim

Her form lies pale & motionless and I tear
My upward glance is my desperate heart's first chance
I'm reaching out to kill the killing switch
Her essence still peppers the ground

Ye' the mirror breaks as I stare at it red-eyed
Those tears have dried as the splotches on her dress
I still feel her words and I still bask in their meanings
And I stand here aside and urge with outreached red-dressed hands

Where will the prayer I utter ring a willing ear?
I've snuffed out a flame to her bright-burning light
When will I be put on the pedestal of karma?
I cannot forgive my deepest reaches no more

Saturday, October 22, 2011

FURY, a new story project WITH SNEAK PEEK


Here's what I've been able to produce tonight. It's coming along nicely so far, with no visible errors to be seen (big bonus!). It's a new project I just began. It's a revenge story, and you'll get an idea of what kind of vengeance the main character seeks in this sneak-peek.

 

The Pride and Joy


Vivien is nine years old, has been for three weeks. Every day is a new one, and I’m always happy that she is there each time. She’s my pride and joy, and I’ll take any bullet or fang that threatens her well-being without hesitation.

What I like to do each birthday is to excite her with something totally new. I still remember her third birthday, where I bit the dust, in terms of finances, and managed to get her four hours of time at a horse ranch outside of town. It was all the worthwhile and it’s been a tradition that I have stood by since then. She’s been called spoiled and I guess there’s some merit to that, but it’s just a token of my appreciation.
That was six years ago, and things have changed only a little. With that in mind, I realized that rather than having the total innocence of a toddler, Vivien has the rambunctiousness of an almost-adolescent, curious and sometimes reckless. But I think my smarts were passed onto her, because she’s proven to be resourceful and thoughtful. The worst she’s experienced in her life has been just a stray nail, which didn’t amount to anything. She knows no true pain, and while it would prepare her for the reality of life to experience such, I won’t force anything on my girl. It’s always better to let your child experience such shaping things on their own, after all.
I was in a fantastic mood yesterday after dinner, and I announced to Clarissa and Vivien, with Vivien bearing the smile I’ve come to know and love, that deserts were in order. We had decadent chocolate sundaes at the finest restaurant in town, each and every one of us. When I tucked her into bed last night, just a few hours later, I heard her call to me as I was just walking out her room, door barely closed.
She felt nervous about something, but she couldn’t describe the reason for it. But I didn’t have to hear her say anything to know why she was nervous; her body was shaking. I know the language of the body fairly well, and her shaking spelled to me that she was in fear. I do know that she’s not afraid of the dark; she’s been past that phase since she was almost eight. So in response to her inability to verify the source of her fears, I reassured her that she would be alright.
That did the trick. She started closing her eyes right away, and to keep assurance still, I walked out of the room at a calm pace. Just as the door was about to shut, I peeked in and noticed that she had fallen asleep. The jewel of my life had lain there, peaceful and motionless.
Today we are going to the meadows, located only a few minutes from the house. We go there most days of the week in the better part of summer, because the temperature is just right and the air is pure, untainted, and perfect for enjoyment. I’m sure she’ll enjoy herself out there today, as she always does.
It turns out that she did. We played a few rounds of ultimate, relaxed on the lush green grass, the soil soft as a bed, and because she brought along the balloons that she got on her birthday, we blew them up and let them fly with the calm winds. There must’ve been as many as thirty of them, all in the sky. I could imagine a fleet of heated balloons embarking on a worldly adventure at that very moment I saw all those balloons. The sun was setting at that time, and we were spent.
As she was eating, she asked me to read her one of the books she received as a gift from Clarissa, just before she would fall asleep. I promised her I would do so; what kind of parent would I be to deny her that?
After a few chapters, she eased into slumber. Today was a great day, looking back on it, and I too took off to sleep. Just as easily, I shut my eyes and, with a few inane thoughts racing through at the pace of a burst of light, began to doze off. This will be a long night.

The Broken Lock


A menacingly slow twist of a safety pin, inserted in the front door, roused only squeaks of steel and wood. At the same moment, the window to Vivien’s room was being hoist open at a rate only a stealthy individual would produce. A figure now stood, hunched, on her window sill. One would only see this person as a shadow in the darkness and the dim moonlight from the outside, but they would still distinguish this figure as being male. Not a particularly tall one, either.
The front door had finally been rested open, but only to remain slightly ajar; this was not the main focus of the two men responsible for these breaches, for the window made entry for both of them. It’s not known why, then, the front door would be unlocked with such effort and left alone.
Both men were, whispering to each other, would have appeared to be murmuring indistinctly from only a few feet away. They were quiet, and methodical. It was obvious that Vivien was in danger.
The man who unlocked the door remained inside the room, just at the foot of Vivien’s bed. The other climbed outside, landed on the lawn below with a quiet thud, and walked towards a car parked at the curb only a stone’s throw away. He produced a sack, leather in composition, of large size.
Meanwhile, as the man was walking back to the house below Vivien’s window, the man in her room began to sweat. But he wasn’t nervous. He was Hector Buchanan, the front-runner, who loved to cause fear and shake things up. The man outside the window was Gillean, the depraved runt, who loved to trap and to maim. He stood there in anticipation, sweating more profusely than Hector was. He was also grinning, eyes wide open. He was embellished with sadistic glee, and this wasn’t the first time he and Hector had done something like this.
Hector, in a rapid movement, turned Vivien onto her stomach; this awoke her, but at the same time, he prevented her from screaming by sealing her mouth with his right hand. With the other, he swept her up out of the safety of her bed, dashed toward the window, and tossed Vivien down to Gillean. The latter’s eyes almost seemed to glow at that very instant.

The Deathly Scream


Vivien screamed. I’ve never heard her utter one like that in my life and I am not going to stall any longer to find out what is happening to her. Children scream like that for a reason.
I broke out in sweat, and Clarissa was also awake at the moment. She immediately clung to my right arm with a vice grip, begging me to check on Vivien. I ran to the closet, put on my comfort clothing, and ran out into the hall.
First thing that caught my attention was that the front door had been opened. I was descending the stairs to investigate when I heard the loud creaking of wood from Vivien’s room. I had no time to waste here, so I went back up the short flight of stairs I travelled with the pace of a rabbit, and found myself trapped behind Vivien’s door, which was locked.
I turned the door knob furiously, begging for a purchase beneath my nerve-wracked breaths. I was finding no such thing, even pushing violently on her door. That was when I could hear Vivien shout to me, but there was something wrong: she was outside. She shouted again, but her voice drowned out mid-note. At that moment, I gave up on her bedroom door and almost leapt down the stairs to the front door. Clarissa was rushing behind me, sounding appropriately distressed.
Right after I threw the door open, I spotted two men fleeing from the house, one was leading the other carrying a sack of some kind. It was writhing around and that was when I deduced that they had placed her in it. They were kidnapping my life, with their path interspersed with an idle car. A shadowy figure was waiting at the driver’s seat.
I screamed her name in rage and pain, pain at the sight of these animals stealing my child away from me like this, while I ran at full speed. The one who wasn’t holding Vivien in the sack turned quickly after hearing me, and threw something at me. At first nothing happened, and while I was still running at full speed towards them, I then felt a jolt of piercing pain in my right calf. It was enough to make me fall to the grass, soaked with morning dew and causing Clarissa just behind me to fall as well.
I was crying at that moment, terrified at what was happening. Both men had been in the car for a second now, and the car began to accelerate. The driver window had been rolled down, and the driver was pointing a gun at me, which I was able to discern because it reflected the moon light. I was getting up, just barely past the knees, when he fired three rounds in quick succession. Neither of them hit, but it was jarring nonetheless.
They were in full speed by then, and there I stood, paralyzed with fear. Some of the houses began to light up, but I was absolutely writhing with something I have never felt before. I fell to my knees, and cried out loud into the night.
I felt the fury of a thousand worlds.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Purge - Final Edit Stage Update II

The story once known as "Forget, Regret; Power, Devourer", renamed as 'Purge', is nearing completion.

I made a few more edits today. In the first few chapters, I added a few paragraphs in total to flesh out the story of each. I've also added a space between paragraphs, so as to avoid the "wall of text" effect. Some more corrections had to be made, obviously because Word can't detect every literary mistake. One has to be very intuitive in the editing process.

Feels like I am critiquing my own work, to be frank. And I hold mixed feelings for the realm of critique.

As for publishing it, I am considering Clarke's World Magazine, which is actually what is known as an "e-zine." However, I want to get a full-on copyright before publishing it to them, because I don't want them to own the hard copy version. I'll contact them before hand and inquire about this, but I'll take the safe route anyway because it requires quite a bit of effort to write a story.

Also, they pay ten cents per word (up to 4,000 words), and five cents per word after that. As such, they would prefer a 4,000 word limit. This is definitely encouraging. I could use a monetary boost for sure.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Victim Of Love - Update

I've written the first two lyrics just now, all within ten minutes. This has only happened a few times since I've made a hobby of writing song lyrics. I can already see how it would be perceived as dark, given the nature of the character I am still developing. The effort should pay off, big time.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Victim Of Love (Concept Album Overview/Synopsis)

This was just started tonight. The idea first popped in my head a few days ago, and I wanted to write it out, expand it into something romantically sinister, intimately dangerous. One of the most intriguing plot-lines I've ever read in literary history was the sycophantic relationship between (King) MacBeth & Lady MacBeth, of the ever famous cinematic play written by William Shakespeare. This storyline, in lyrical form, is inspired by that play. Of course, there's my own creations involved, and not some blind quest for power over a kingdom.

By the way, until I get a copyright on my concept albums already written (two are finished, two are still in the works, including this one), I will not put them up on here. This may seem hypocritical, given the fact that I've already posted well over one-hundred pieces, but at least they are protected, to a limited extent, by the Creative Commons license. However, I want full authority & ownership of my conceptual works. So at the most, I'll post a synopsis & a song-title list. That should proceed right...about...NOW:

Victim Of Love

Love is a shackling series of emotional responses, to attraction, to longing, to the fantastical realm of need. The wealth of possible actions, rational and irrational, determine the character of a person in love. What would it be like if someone were to feel a tingling sense of bloodthirst, serving the frontlines of love? Victims differ by cause, but is the man in my story truly a victim of love? Or is he a slave to it?

Lured By Wire

Entranced

Spinehooks

Grasping My Blood

A Heart Of Gold

Turned To Black

Masochism, Protection, & Perversion

Enemy To Friends

Marked

Duped

En la Negación

Victim Of Love

Sunday, May 23, 2010

So Old, So Cold

Take my skin, and live it a lifetime unlike me
Today it feels so hollow and empty of joy
That's when I realize where I'm going
It just seems so unfair to me is all

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life to the bitter end

I'm so old, and so cold

With the way I've lived, one would feel so hopeless
At this moment I'm in drowning in misery
Mortified at the thought of the end of my life
It just seems that I couldn't be what I wanted to be

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life to the bitter end

I'm so old, and so cold

Take my skin and take it to places I've never been
That's my regret
To never embrace
The possibilities

With the way I've lived, just the thought is torturous
That's my crime
To myself
Now it's too late to do it again

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
Now to bear with the truth, I'm so old
So in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life where I could never be
All that was possible

Bring Down Our Berlin Wall

The wall is ominous
It's all that separates us
I've unfurled my sickles and hammers
To strike it down
Built from your trauma
It displaces our love
The time we found each other
Now seemingly gone
The wall is oppressive
It's what distances us
From whatever hearts we're made of
Won't you help strike it down
It guards your soul
The feelings we have for each other
Now lost in the unknown

The wall is spiteful
It's the thorn in our sides
Why do you lack the mutual effort
To help do it away
My hands are breaking
It eats at my longing
For time we could spend together
Now under lock and key
The wall is maddening
My Goliath, your David
I've unsheathed my utmost will
To bring it down
A part of your weakness
That keeps you from growing
And giving us the chance
To be happy together

I've unfurled my sickles and hammers
I've unsheathed my utmost will
Why can't you help me
Bring down our Berlin Wall

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Nothing Left

Outside there is nothing
That can save me from
Death of my own making
So I wait for a time to
End the excruciating
Pain of the everyday
There's nothing left for me
There's nothing left for me
To experience
It's all been spoken for

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

There's nothing left

Inside of my own head
One could find emptiness
It's not the fault of mine
Life is just a carousel
I'm no longer a willing being
So send the ender or I'll do it
There's nothing left for me
There's nothing left for me
To experience
It's all been spoken for

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

There's nothing left

I can't be convinced
I can't be reasoned with
No one can stop this
Self-defiance
Or can the void be filled
With something new?

There's nothing left

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

The terror of life!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Light My Fire

Breathe deep, breathe deep
And light my fire
I'm just mere kindling
Waiting for your blazing eyes

Look in, look into my eyes
And you'll realize
I'm a flame yet to live
Waiting for your tender skin

Don't you see everything
I am all that you await
Set me aflame
Make me feel alive

Breathe deep, breathe deep
And light my fire
I'm just mere kindling
Waiting for your blazing eyes

Look deep, look deep
Into my eyes
I'm a pyre yet to blaze
Waiting for your tender skin

Don't you see everything
I am all that you await
Set me aflame
Make me feel alive
And in my warmth
I'll breathe you new life

Friday, April 16, 2010

Together & Forever

There's nothing better
When we're together
Blink of eyes
As two turns to one
Stretch the smiles
As the spark is done
Our link is deep
The work is steep
Contend no more
We've been there before
Our auras are shining
In our wake
If the gods are smiling
It's of our make
There's nothing better
When we're together
We're linked at center
Together & Forever
We're linked at center
Together & Forever

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Three Long Months

Three long months
The harrowing thoughts
And the best of yesterday
All in those months
The journey with you
Went every which way
And I would never want
It to have happened otherwise
All in those months
I learned of you
I learned of myself
What I feel for you
Words can't describe enough
As I have been granted
All of you
Your face
Your smile
Your happiness
My joy
I couldn't ask for better
All of you
Your grace
Your heart
Your happiness
My joy
In those long three months
Through the harrowing thoughts
I thought of you
Of the goodness
Of the positives
Of the possibilities
Of you, my everything
I couldn't ask for better
As I have been granted
You as a boon
Through the thick and thin
I always felt the joy in;
Your face
Your smile
Your happiness
My joy
Your grace
Your heart
Your happiness
My joy

I couldn't ask for better
I wouldn't ask for anything else
But you by my side
I love you

Saturday, April 10, 2010

End Of The Line

End of the line, trudged on through time
I've lost my mind through death's grim signs
Sated my taste to take the battle on
The spoils of the end are curiosity's son
I led a life of stories so far & wide
By effort I avoided the ominous tide
It all came to this, visage of final bliss
Never came, and I felt shame; I played a game
The game of the illusory comfort
To hold my sanity together in fort
And by this day I have reached
Come this day truth we all seek
End of the line, trudged on through time
I've lost my mind through death's grim signs

Friday, April 9, 2010

Cyber-Veneer

The distance in wires
Isolates me
What I want to grasp
Is far away
A simple sentence
Is never enough
I want the closeness
Once again

You're so far away
Behind the screen
I want to be close
Closer to you

The truth in characters
Obliterates me
What I want to know
Is hardly real
A simple single click
Should heal me
I want the closeness
Again & again

You're so far away
Behind the screen
I want to be close
Closer to you

You're so unreal
Behind the words
I want to know you
Know all I need

You're so far away
Too far away for me
I want to be close
Close with you

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Insomnia

Every single tortured night
I find myself screaming awake
Every time I envision myself
With not a single meaning
Can I find a way out of here?
Can I escape from this pain?
What is the fix for nothingness
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured day
I find myself darting each way
Every time I envision myself
Lying in a dash of my pain
Can I find a way out of here?
Can I escape from anguish?
Who is out there to help me
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured night
I find myself screaming awake
Every time I envision myself
Glazed in my terror sweats
Can I find a way out of this?
Can I escape from this pain?
Where can I run away to
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured day
I find myself wanting to fade
Every time I envision myself
Once again screaming awake
Can I find a way out of this?
Can I escape from anguish?
What can I do for myself
To stop myself screaming awake

Awake
Awake
Awake

Help me

The Dove

If my heart speaks in deafening volumes; I love you.
If I turn back time to make things right; I love you.
If I make a sacrifice every single moment for you; I love you.
If the world doesn't understand what we feel; I love you.
And if every single time I am lifted in your presence; I'll love you always.

If the tremors in my hands intensify in your gaze; I love you.
If the high and low forecasts in our wake don't stop me; I love you.
If I dedicate myself to uphold your acceptance in me; I love you
If everyone in the world could hear me, I'd shout it; I love you.
And if every single time I am lifted in your presence; I'll love you always.

The dove flies every day for me.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Prince Of Thieves

This is not my usual style, because it is not intended to be a lyric. Nonetheless, since lyrics are basically poems in themselves, this can still be classed with the rest of my poetic works.

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Here I tell a tale, makes my heart swell
Of the days I was the Prince of Thieves
A tragedy where, as my teardrops fell
I toiled and troubled for my dear family

First, the wife, mean so much to me
Struck with fatality, she'd hardly see
I tried and I tried to give her a cure
Yet my low stature deemed me inferior

And so I defied the laws of the land
To pay for heroics I felt the iron hand
Took me away, they would not heed
And thus they named me the Prince of Thieves

And thus she passed...

Then, first-born, mean so much to me
Starving and wounded, a child in need
I tried and I tried to give her respite
Yet all my efforts were clogged with might

And again I defied the laws of the land
For feed for my child, I felt the iron hand
Took me away, they would not heed
And thus they named me the Prince of Thieves

And thus, she passed...

Then, last child, all that's left of me
Fell with the illness, could hardly breathe
I tried and I tried to give her a cure
Yet my past crimes deemed me sinner

And again I defied the laws of the land
To save my last love, I felt the iron hand
Took me away, they would not heed
And thus they named me the Prince of Thieves

And thus, she passed...

The tale I told, makes my days cold
Of the days I was the Prince of Thieves
I hope you learn from what I've told
So as to guide you in your dire times of need

And thus, I shall pass...