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So Old, So Cold

Take my skin, and live it a lifetime unlike me
Today it feels so hollow and empty of joy
That's when I realize where I'm going
It just seems so unfair to me is all

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life to the bitter end

I'm so old, and so cold

With the way I've lived, one would feel so hopeless
At this moment I'm in drowning in misery
Mortified at the thought of the end of my life
It just seems that I couldn't be what I wanted to be

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life to the bitter end

I'm so old, and so cold

Take my skin and take it to places I've never been
That's my regret
To never embrace
The possibilities

With the way I've lived, just the thought is torturous
That's my crime
To myself
Now it's too late to do it again

I have to bear with the truth, I'm so old
I'm so in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
Now to bear with the truth, I'm so old
So in need of meaning, I'm so cold
When I die, remember me
I've lived my life where I could never be
All that was possible

Bring Down Our Berlin Wall

The wall is ominous
It's all that separates us
I've unfurled my sickles and hammers
To strike it down
Built from your trauma
It displaces our love
The time we found each other
Now seemingly gone
The wall is oppressive
It's what distances us
From whatever hearts we're made of
Won't you help strike it down
It guards your soul
The feelings we have for each other
Now lost in the unknown

The wall is spiteful
It's the thorn in our sides
Why do you lack the mutual effort
To help do it away
My hands are breaking
It eats at my longing
For time we could spend together
Now under lock and key
The wall is maddening
My Goliath, your David
I've unsheathed my utmost will
To bring it down
A part of your weakness
That keeps you from growing
And giving us the chance
To be happy together

I've unfurled my sickles and hammers
I've unsheathed my utmost will
Why can't you help me
Bring down our Berlin Wall

Nothing Left

Outside there is nothing
That can save me from
Death of my own making
So I wait for a time to
End the excruciating
Pain of the everyday
There's nothing left for me
There's nothing left for me
To experience
It's all been spoken for

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

There's nothing left

Inside of my own head
One could find emptiness
It's not the fault of mine
Life is just a carousel
I'm no longer a willing being
So send the ender or I'll do it
There's nothing left for me
There's nothing left for me
To experience
It's all been spoken for

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

There's nothing left

I can't be convinced
I can't be reasoned with
No one can stop this
Self-defiance
Or can the void be filled
With something new?

There's nothing left

What has come my way
Is all of the world the same
We sacrifice seconds, minutes
Just for it to end in decay

The terror of life!

Light My Fire

Breathe deep, breathe deep
And light my fire
I'm just mere kindling
Waiting for your blazing eyes

Look in, look into my eyes
And you'll realize
I'm a flame yet to live
Waiting for your tender skin

Don't you see everything
I am all that you await
Set me aflame
Make me feel alive

Breathe deep, breathe deep
And light my fire
I'm just mere kindling
Waiting for your blazing eyes

Look deep, look deep
Into my eyes
I'm a pyre yet to blaze
Waiting for your tender skin

Don't you see everything
I am all that you await
Set me aflame
Make me feel alive
And in my warmth
I'll breathe you new life

Together & Forever

There's nothing better
When we're together
Blink of eyes
As two turns to one
Stretch the smiles
As the spark is done
Our link is deep
The work is steep
Contend no more
We've been there before
Our auras are shining
In our wake
If the gods are smiling
It's of our make
There's nothing better
When we're together
We're linked at center
Together & Forever
We're linked at center
Together & Forever

Three Long Months

Three long months
The harrowing thoughts
And the best of yesterday
All in those months
The journey with you
Went every which way
And I would never want
It to have happened otherwise
All in those months
I learned of you
I learned of myself
What I feel for you
Words can't describe enough
As I have been granted
All of you
Your face
Your smile
Your happiness
My joy
I couldn't ask for better
All of you
Your grace
Your heart
Your happiness
My joy
In those long three months
Through the harrowing thoughts
I thought of you
Of the goodness
Of the positives
Of the possibilities
Of you, my everything
I couldn't ask for better
As I have been granted
You as a boon
Through the thick and thin
I always felt the joy in;
Your face
Your smile
Your happiness
My joy
Your grace
Your heart
Your happiness
My joy

I couldn't ask for better
I wouldn't ask for anything else
But you by my side
I love you

End Of The Line

End of the line, trudged on through time
I've lost my mind through death's grim signs
Sated my taste to take the battle on
The spoils of the end are curiosity's son
I led a life of stories so far & wide
By effort I avoided the ominous tide
It all came to this, visage of final bliss
Never came, and I felt shame; I played a game
The game of the illusory comfort
To hold my sanity together in fort
And by this day I have reached
Come this day truth we all seek
End of the line, trudged on through time
I've lost my mind through death's grim signs

Cyber-Veneer

The distance in wires
Isolates me
What I want to grasp
Is far away
A simple sentence
Is never enough
I want the closeness
Once again

You're so far away
Behind the screen
I want to be close
Closer to you

The truth in characters
Obliterates me
What I want to know
Is hardly real
A simple single click
Should heal me
I want the closeness
Again & again

You're so far away
Behind the screen
I want to be close
Closer to you

You're so unreal
Behind the words
I want to know you
Know all I need

You're so far away
Too far away for me
I want to be close
Close with you

Insomnia

Every single tortured night
I find myself screaming awake
Every time I envision myself
With not a single meaning
Can I find a way out of here?
Can I escape from this pain?
What is the fix for nothingness
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured day
I find myself darting each way
Every time I envision myself
Lying in a dash of my pain
Can I find a way out of here?
Can I escape from anguish?
Who is out there to help me
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured night
I find myself screaming awake
Every time I envision myself
Glazed in my terror sweats
Can I find a way out of this?
Can I escape from this pain?
Where can I run away to
To stop myself screaming awake

Every single tortured day
I find myself wanting to fade
Every time I envision myself
Once again screaming awake
Can I find a way out of this?
Can I escape from anguish?
What can I do for myself
To stop myself screaming awake

Awake
Awake
Awake

Help me

The Dove

If my heart speaks in deafening volumes; I love you.
If I turn back time to make things right; I love you.
If I make a sacrifice every single moment for you; I love you.
If the world doesn't understand what we feel; I love you.
And if every single time I am lifted in your presence; I'll love you always.

If the tremors in my hands intensify in your gaze; I love you.
If the high and low forecasts in our wake don't stop me; I love you.
If I dedicate myself to uphold your acceptance in me; I love you
If everyone in the world could hear me, I'd shout it; I love you.
And if every single time I am lifted in your presence; I'll love you always.

The dove flies every day for me.

Gone To The Next Day

The past mistakes
My weapons, my aces

The best places
My heartache rages

And here I go again
Into the unknown
Where I will go
No one will know

The worst faces
New-found relationships

The next days
Keep me on my way

And here I go again
Into the unknown
Where I will go
No one will know

My past mistakes
Worst met faces
Prove to be my weapons
Prove to be my aces

Into the unknown
Into the unknown
Into the unknown
Into the unknown

Henceforth I go

Sanguinary Creature

In the accusatory light of everyday
I successfully masquerade
Two figments of mind equally insane
Get me off the fucking street!

Insatiable thirst for gore built up
No need to mention I'm fucked up
In the slammer I've plummeted
Now need to kill to get back up

Need you ask why? Are you blind?
Isn't my visceral nature a sign?
I guess I must rip out your spine
By then it might be too late for you

Oh but I'd rather take pleasure
In the insatiable act of torture
Your screams are the only measure
Get me off the fucking street!

Welcome me Driver!
Welcome me Driver!
Welcome me Driver!
I'm back, your lord, Driver!

Without Your Senses

Slither sense of innocence
What you once never had
Dim all you had once meant
To seek and fight for, my lad
There's a sea beyond us all
Found yonder only in your mind
Courage is needed, break the wall
To love the time you spend alive

Slip away sense of darkness
Penumbra contrast to despair
Always there for you to harness
In the time you breathe the air
There's a sea beyond us all
Found yonder only in your mind
Courage is needed, break the wall
To love the time you spend alive

Sloshed in sense of tension
Can't keep you fast in the line
Same to me, for why I mention
Felt all the same in the life of mine
There's a sea beyond us all
Found yonder only in your mind
Courage is needed, break the wall
To love the time you spend alive

Sliding sense of wisdom
Only if your mind knows of it
To achieve is to find freedom
So easy for us all to miss
There's a sea beyond us all
Found yonder only in your mind
Courage is needed, break the wall
To love the time you spend alive

Love is life...love is life
Love your life...break the wall

Claim Me

 So close to home, close to my blackened heart
The burden of truth on my horrid voracity
Hit me hard and swift, upon sight of innocence
I had to resist, I couldn't take the life of a kid

For death is my only friend
As I've brought many lives to an end...

I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I believe in the karma that is coming my way
I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I know I will see the face of death I truly deserve

For death is my only friend
As I've brought many lives to an end...

So I welcome you, taker of souls replete with sin
I'm far too inhumane to coexist
With those whose humanity I had once shared
I had to resist, I couldn't take the life of a kid

For death is my only friend
As I've brought many lives to an end...

I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I believe in the karma that is coming my way
I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I know I will see the face of death I truly deserve

For death is my only friend
As I've brought many lives to an end...

My abyss, from the blackest pit of my being
Consumes me in the time where truth has hit
I can't live anymore
I can't know anymore
I can't accept anymore
The monster I've become

For death is my only friend
As I've brought many lives to an end...

I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I believe in the karma that is coming my way
I'm sinking into this ever deepening abyss
I know I will see the face of death I truly deserve

My abyss claims me
Consumes me from dark truth
I am a monster
I am a monster...

Washed Of Weeping Days

Keep your weeping inside
Now is your time
Now is man's time
To shine a light on hope

Living in style

Living easy life

Can take its toll on you

When things turn down

You hold the key
Every single second
It's inside of you
It's inside of us

Living in style

Living easy life

Can take its toll on you

When things turn down

So soon
So soon it'll all come around
So soon
So soon it'll all come around
So soon
So soon it'll all come around
So soon
So soon and we will all see

Life can take its toll on you

Charm

Madam Starlight
You're so bright
Lay unto me

Your charm...

The every night
I catch a glimpse of you
Your very light
Works to help me through
The bustling days
My every day
Don't go away
Don't go away

Madam Starlight
You're so bright
Lay unto me

Your charm...

Grab hold of us
With your charm
Take hold of us
Light so warm

Madam Starlight
You're so bright
Lay unto me

Madam Starlight
You're so bright
Lay unto me

Your charm...

GAD

Don't you worry
You can't know of everything
And the worst doesn't always happen
So don't you worry

See through to positive
See through to the best
Keep your cool
Keep it real

And don't you worry

If It's Not Made In Heaven

If it's not made in heaven...

You think grand, you know what you want
Seen a future with someone you love
It's true, and only true if you want it to be
And if you need, I'll be there always by your side

That's the truth, for love is life
But as with anything
Nothing comes easily

If it's not made in heaven
Don't let that stop you
For if you hang in there
The love you seek will find you
Nothing comes so easily
The best in life doesn't come
If it's not made in heaven

You know who your heart is for, she's the one
Only think of the good things that could come
Love the every moment that you get
If you persevere, the goodness will be with you

That's the truth, for love is life
And as with anything
Nothing comes easily

If it's not made in heaven
Don't let that stop you
For if you hang in there
The love you seek will find you
Nothing comes so easily
The best in life doesn't come
If it's not made in heaven

She's the one, let her feel you
Let her know who you are
Nothing comes easily
Nothing comes so easily

The best in life doesn't come
If it's not made in heaven

Gemini

Gemini, Gemini, Gemini

Come to me! Come to me! Come to me!

Gemini

Take my life, give it an end
To set me free, forever I so dread!

Gemini, Gemini, Gemini

Come to me! Come to me! Come to me!

Gemini

Give me peace, of heart & mind
To know that my life will end in time

Gemini, Gemini, Gemini

Come to me! Come to me! Come to me!
Answer me! Answer me! Answer me!